Ignorance Is Bliss.

I've always been the kind of person who hates being left in the dark. I hate when someone is keeping secrects from me. Unfortunately (for those who are hiding it) I have an uncanny way of somehow finding it out. Sooner or later. I'm sneaky that way... haha.

But I love surprises... only the good kind though.  I love knowing that someone cared enough about me to plan a surprise, something I might like. But that is entirely a different matter.

I believe that sometimes being left in the dark is better.  Not for petty things like who's dating who... etc etc. If someone is hiding that he/she knows you can do better with not knowing about, then I think that it should be kept that way.

For me, at such a situation its a matter of trust. Do I trust the person enough to think that they know what I'd like to know/not know? Because honestly I am the one who has the right to decide what's good or bad for me. But for big decisions one can't ever tell.

Afterall you can't 'unknow' something once you know it. You can't go back and edit, cut or delete. Sad, but true.

Decision Making.

The worse part is not knowing what you want. I'm in that phase of my life where I have no freaking clue where I wanna be in the next few years. No idea of the consequences I might face for choosing what I will. I guess that's the main problem. I guess I'm not taking that step because I'm afraid of what might happen or what people will think. Maybe I should stop caring about what others think. Maybe I should think about what I wanna do and what I want for me. Because in the end I am the one who'll have to face the consequences. I guess its time to finally take that leap of faith.

Reminiscing.

What do I do when I can't get you out of my mind? 
When at every breath I wish I could turn back time. 

Fingers hovering over the keyboard. Wondering if I should text you.
Maybe I should, if just to say goodbye. 

I woke up crying just because you're starring in my dreams now.
Maybe writing it down will help me out somehow.

Hello! So I just wrote this poem today. I was reminiscing all day and finally put my thoughts in order. Hope you like it. Thanks for reading!