Stages.

I was the one who changed, okay? Let it be the 'it's me, not you' situation.

It's the thought that counts, not the gesture.

I said all the right things at all the wrong times.

I deleted all your texts but I still remember exactly what they said.

Be brave. It gets better if you believe.

Confused with the ways of this world.

Don't need saving. I am my own saviour.

Purity.

Light streams through the open window, bathing the beautiful white petals of the freshly picked flowers in a wonderful glow. White roses, they are. They stand straight in the glass vase that they have been placed in. Half filled with water, the vase gives support to the long stemmed roses that stand up with pride. Of course they have something to be proud of. They are beautiful, have the most magnificent scent and symbolize purity and innocence. The light passes through the glass vase creating a rainbow on the marble top. How wonderful the sight of a rainbow is. Seven divine colors, seamlessly blending into one another creating a pleasant sight to see. A breeze flies through the window, ruffling the petals of the roses, wafting its scent throughout the room. A white Persian cat appears through the door held ajar by a pair of red sneakers. It jumps lightly onto the flower patterned armchair sitting beneath the marble top where the roses lay. As the cat paws softly at the furniture, a dew drop falls on it as the roses sway in the breeze. It glares up at the flowers, growling lightly and shaking out its fur. With a smooth leap, it lands next to the vase on the marble top. One whiff of the roses' scent and the cat relaxes instantly. It lays its head on its paws and purrs in the warm patch of sunshine, enjoying the cool breeze and the company of the roses.

Fall.

Things I love about Fall.

Chilly Mornings.
When you wake up in the mornings and your blanket is declaring its love for you and your bed doesn't want to let you go and there is a chill in the air that makes you hide under your blanket and not wanna come out ever, that's when you know its almost time for winter. Although it is a pain to get up to go to uni, chilly mornings are still my favorite.

Coffee.
Even though I drink hot coffee all year long, fall is a season where people won't look at me in disbelief and go "Isn't it too hot to be drinking that?' I can curl up on my couch wearing my comfiest, coziest sweater with a cup of hot coffee in my hand and just enjoy life. In todays world where everything is moving so fast you hardly have time to stop for a second and breathe, having a moment to yourself is a gift.

Sweater weather.

It's finally time to pull out your warm sweaters and hoodies that have been locked up for the summer. It is a good time to be alive cuz it is 'socially acceptable' to go out in whats basically your night suit. Yay for soft fluffy sweaters and big warm hoodies.

Boots.
One of my favorite fashion pieces are boots. Long boots. High heeled booties. Wedge boots. Little ankle booties. AAAH. I just love all of them. I love pairing them with jeans and wish I could pull them all all year long.

Bonfires.

One thing that doesn't start until its too cold to feel your finfers are bonfires. But I still wait for them impatiently. I really love how during bonfires you relive old memories and there's just this carefree feeling that everyone seems to be high on. It's my most favorite feeling ever. Singing songs. Reminiscing. And bonding over it all.

Turning leaves.
Of course the whole point of 'fall' are the autumn leaves falling down. I've never witnessed the proper fall but I see the trees turning brown and shedding their lovely leaves to the ground. I just can't resist walking on the leaves, crunching them under my feet and just enjoying my day.

Shake it off.

Getting upset over something someone did is totally okay. But you should never let it get you too down or feel as if you are not enough, People don't realize the power of words. They are inconsiderate and don't think of the consequences of what they're saying. But that doesn't mean you should let that make you feel inferior. Instead talk to the people you love, do the things you enjoy and forget what others think and just be you.

Shopping, for most of us if not all of us, is a kind of therapy. We enter our favorite store, gawking around at the beautiful things that we might wear the next day, already imagining the perfect outfit next time we go to class and for one moment everything in the world is problem free. There is no drama. There is no pain. There is just the joy of shopping.

Go for a walk. It clears the mind and gives you some 'me' time. Let go of your fears and insecurities and just breathe in the cool autumn air and enjoy life for once. Hell, step on those crunchy leaves if that's what you want to do.

And if blasting TSwift in your room dancing around to it is what makes you happy then no one can tell you otherwise. Music has a way of making you so happy you forget what you were sad about. After all 'haters gonna hate'.

Trust.

I openly admit that I have serious trust issues. Reason being that I have had my trust completely shattered by different people. Hence you can't blame me for being cautious. I'm a very outgoing person. I'll make many friends, very easily. But as soon as I start getting close to someone I put up a wall. I believe in the saying 'better safe than sorry'. But sometimes my walls are too thick. They don't let the people who actually want to help in. But how do I see the difference between who's safe and who's not? Do I take a chance and get hurt or play it safe? I'm still trying to figure it out.

Inspiration.

 Lately I've been feeling pretty uninspired when it comes to blog writing. I open my blogger dashboard and stare at the blank page for so long that I lose track of time. I'm not a very patient person. But I'm also a perfectionist. I don't give up easily either. These qualities combined together make it very hard for me to not write for a long time. Writing is a passion of mine and if I say I don't have time to write then I am just fooling myself. Also I really hate when people say "I don't have the time to do that." Or "I am so busy I can't possibly do this." The concept of not having the time to do something is basically false. It's all about priorities and preferences. If you love something YOU WILL make time for it, no matter how busy your schedule is. And whenever I'm having problems with blogging I have to remind myself that this is something I love. Something that I want to be doing. And I will keep doing it until it is ingrained in my brain that no matter what happens I will blog. Obviously there will be days where I will be facing a writing block or some other issue. But this rule is mainly for putting off things and procrastinating, a bad habit of mine. (oops)

Inspiration comes from everything. You might be sitting in class studying geometry and something the teacher said might inspire you to write about something entirely unrelated to geometry. Then there's nature, which inspires unexpectedly. Try sitting in a park one day, just sitting with your notebook, looking around and noticing things. TRUST ME. You will be so inspired, you wont even believe it. Noticing whats happening around you is a great way to get your creative juices flowing. Look beneath the surface. Read between the lines. USE A LOT OF IDIOMS. (they're so fun I LOVE 'EM)

I don't know when this turned to a "tips to get inspired" blog post but that's where my thoughts took me. At least I'm over my writing block so I'm gonna go ahead and post this ramble.

As always. Thanks for reading.

Starting Uni...

Starting university is like stepping into a new era of your life.

While the thought of having a new start in a totally different place from where you were last sounds appealing, it is the idea of having to interact with people you don't know that sounds terrifying! Even if I consider myself to be the most outgoing, gregarious person, I might still be haunted a bit ( just a tiny little bit ) by the idea of a new beginning. Change is difficult for most people. It is human nature to reject the unfamiliar things because we don't know how to behave in such situations.

Also there's the fact that there already might be cliques and groups in your batch. Friends who come to the uni together from their college, people who met during the orientation week you missed. Acquiring that extra bout of confidence might be a lot harder than you think. But I guess its better to put yourself out there rather than be miserable and alone for the rest of the semester. I might also not follow my own advice once I start uni but we'll see.

My classes start in a while and I'm pretty excited but to be honest I'm very nervous too.
*fingers crossed*