Inspiration.

 Lately I've been feeling pretty uninspired when it comes to blog writing. I open my blogger dashboard and stare at the blank page for so long that I lose track of time. I'm not a very patient person. But I'm also a perfectionist. I don't give up easily either. These qualities combined together make it very hard for me to not write for a long time. Writing is a passion of mine and if I say I don't have time to write then I am just fooling myself. Also I really hate when people say "I don't have the time to do that." Or "I am so busy I can't possibly do this." The concept of not having the time to do something is basically false. It's all about priorities and preferences. If you love something YOU WILL make time for it, no matter how busy your schedule is. And whenever I'm having problems with blogging I have to remind myself that this is something I love. Something that I want to be doing. And I will keep doing it until it is ingrained in my brain that no matter what happens I will blog. Obviously there will be days where I will be facing a writing block or some other issue. But this rule is mainly for putting off things and procrastinating, a bad habit of mine. (oops)

Inspiration comes from everything. You might be sitting in class studying geometry and something the teacher said might inspire you to write about something entirely unrelated to geometry. Then there's nature, which inspires unexpectedly. Try sitting in a park one day, just sitting with your notebook, looking around and noticing things. TRUST ME. You will be so inspired, you wont even believe it. Noticing whats happening around you is a great way to get your creative juices flowing. Look beneath the surface. Read between the lines. USE A LOT OF IDIOMS. (they're so fun I LOVE 'EM)

I don't know when this turned to a "tips to get inspired" blog post but that's where my thoughts took me. At least I'm over my writing block so I'm gonna go ahead and post this ramble.

As always. Thanks for reading.

Starting Uni...

Starting university is like stepping into a new era of your life.

While the thought of having a new start in a totally different place from where you were last sounds appealing, it is the idea of having to interact with people you don't know that sounds terrifying! Even if I consider myself to be the most outgoing, gregarious person, I might still be haunted a bit ( just a tiny little bit ) by the idea of a new beginning. Change is difficult for most people. It is human nature to reject the unfamiliar things because we don't know how to behave in such situations.

Also there's the fact that there already might be cliques and groups in your batch. Friends who come to the uni together from their college, people who met during the orientation week you missed. Acquiring that extra bout of confidence might be a lot harder than you think. But I guess its better to put yourself out there rather than be miserable and alone for the rest of the semester. I might also not follow my own advice once I start uni but we'll see.

My classes start in a while and I'm pretty excited but to be honest I'm very nervous too.
*fingers crossed*

Bedside Stack #2

Another bedside table stack! Here's what I've been reading and loving lately. Enjoy!

Book I love - The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseni

This book is a masterpiece. So soo amazing. One of the few books which actually 'move you'. Shows the horrible realities that people have endured and is painfully beautiful.

Book I recently finished - Room by Emma Donoghue

I picked this book up just because it was lonely in the bookstore. Excellent excuse I know. :P Anyways this is a very good book and a must read as it was soo beautifully written and so unique.

Book I'm currently reading - Let It Snow by John Green, Lauren Myracle and Maureen Johnson

I normally don't read Christmas books but just got this on a whim. A quick fun read following three stories which overlap and end on a sweet note at the end.

Book to be read - Message In A Bottle by Nicholas Sparks

So I have this pet peeve when I can't read the book when I've watched the movie. I've heard that the movie of this book is good so thought I should try the book out first. EXCITED.

State Of Tranquility.

Sometimes when I'm lying in bed, with my eyes cast upward staring at the ceiling, and the music leaking out of my earbuds, mind wandering, searching I'm happy. No not happy, that's not the right word. Satisfied, pleased, at ease, are words that I would use to describe this feeling. This serene feeling that gives me hope that all is not lost. That helps me go through another day wishing it is the one that will bring answers. When I'm breathing slowly and then deeply when I realize I can, all I can be is grateful. And content.

Ignorance Is Bliss.

I've always been the kind of person who hates being left in the dark. I hate when someone is keeping secrects from me. Unfortunately (for those who are hiding it) I have an uncanny way of somehow finding it out. Sooner or later. I'm sneaky that way... haha.

But I love surprises... only the good kind though.  I love knowing that someone cared enough about me to plan a surprise, something I might like. But that is entirely a different matter.

I believe that sometimes being left in the dark is better.  Not for petty things like who's dating who... etc etc. If someone is hiding that he/she knows you can do better with not knowing about, then I think that it should be kept that way.

For me, at such a situation its a matter of trust. Do I trust the person enough to think that they know what I'd like to know/not know? Because honestly I am the one who has the right to decide what's good or bad for me. But for big decisions one can't ever tell.

Afterall you can't 'unknow' something once you know it. You can't go back and edit, cut or delete. Sad, but true.

Decision Making.

The worse part is not knowing what you want. I'm in that phase of my life where I have no freaking clue where I wanna be in the next few years. No idea of the consequences I might face for choosing what I will. I guess that's the main problem. I guess I'm not taking that step because I'm afraid of what might happen or what people will think. Maybe I should stop caring about what others think. Maybe I should think about what I wanna do and what I want for me. Because in the end I am the one who'll have to face the consequences. I guess its time to finally take that leap of faith.

Reminiscing.

What do I do when I can't get you out of my mind? 
When at every breath I wish I could turn back time. 

Fingers hovering over the keyboard. Wondering if I should text you.
Maybe I should, if just to say goodbye. 

I woke up crying just because you're starring in my dreams now.
Maybe writing it down will help me out somehow.

Hello! So I just wrote this poem today. I was reminiscing all day and finally put my thoughts in order. Hope you like it. Thanks for reading!